Where have all the cowboys gone!?!

It has been two years. Two years since I have written anything. Anything personal at all; other than random status updates. Our life has drastically changed since then. We have gotten older. Accumulated wisdom. Our hearts have ached and broke. Our children have flourished. Our marriage evolved. I do plan on writing more. How many times have I said that!?! To many too count for sure! But I need this. I need an escape. I need justification. Clarity. I need to scream and cry...possibly at the same time. I need to feel unbroken or just assurance that its okay to just. Be. Broken. My emotions, thoughts, feelings need to be lassoed in... I need a F*bomb*ing spiritual cowboy/girl! As my brain wraps around all of these things I will begin to share them. I will probably start with the good stuff first...because in these two years there has been an abundance of good!